Friday, October 23

Tap At My Window

The voice still sings at me, still haunts me.

It's beautiful. The most beautiful thing I've ever heard. And every melodic syllable, every perfect utterance, every emotional outcry, cuts me a little deeper. It's the perfect cut, the perfect pain. There's no blood, there's no scar, but it burns anyway.

I wonder if the voice is inside me. I wander the streets, searching for answers and searching for silence, but it's still there. I close my doors, and it taps at my window. It wills me to let it in.

Fighting it is futile. But I fight it anyway. I fight it because it's all I know. I try to find an emotion I
can't deny, and then deny it anyway.

Emotion. She only lets me down. Emotion has no place here. I know every part of the game, and want no part in it. I want to play to my own rules.

I know the dice are loaded, but I try to play anyway.

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